It was just a joke… Why do you have to let it affect the rest of the night? The rest of the prom night. The last prom night!

Yes, you didn’t give me a flower, and somebody else did. But I don’t give a fucking shit about receiving flowers from you or anyone else. It’s just a flower! It will die soon! You do know that I don’t need anything like that or other fancy things! What the actual fuck… It’s like you don’t know me at all.

It’s just a material thing. Why do you have to be so shallow? Hindi naman ako nagtampo that you didn’t give me one naman eh, diba? I didn’t get sad just because of that, because it’s just a fucking flower that will wilt in no time! Why do you have to act like that just because you didn’t give me one? Peste. Ikaw talaga ang nagpalala ng sitwasyon. I already explained to you that I don’t need flowers to make the night perfect. All I needed was you. Why do you have to sulk like that just because of some shallow material stupid fucking thing?

I’m fed up… I’m sick and tired of your shallowness… It was the last prom, why do you have to be so affected by that fucking joke? While we were dancing, you still continued to rant about that with me. When you asked me to dance with you for the last dance, you said shit like after the dance you would continue to make me feel like shit. Didn’t you see that I wanted you to just forget about the unnecessary shit and just dance with me like we’re the only people on the dance floor? I just wished that you understood my point and the situation that it was the last prom! I just wish that you disregarded the shallow shit that you kept whining about and just made the night awesome because IT WAS THE LAST PROM. But no… You just let it go on until I shedded tears and embarrassed myself in front of many as I walked out the hall.

And since the night ended with a broken heart… I almost bore blades into my skin just because of you, being such a sissy and so fucking shallow about a fucking worthless joke. Too bad my brother took all the sharp objects that I’d take before I even pierced them completely into my skin. Halos mabaliw na ako dahil lang sa isang bagay na hindi naman dapat pag-awayan. It was pointless.

Hindi na talaga kita maintindihan… At first, you’d say that it’s alright after I apologized. You said that you accepted my apology. Pero bakit ganun? You still let it affect the whole night… You continued to rub on my face that I was at fault.

Ewan ko na… I’m so sick and tired. Konting konti nalang talaga… Instead of giving you up, which I can never do… I’d just give my life up… Ayoko na talaga. It was just a joke! It was the last JS prom for us!

Ayoko na…